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Wednesday, December 24th, 2008
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6:06 am - NEW JOURNAL!!!
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ATTN EVERYONE!!!
My Mom got me a paid account for Christmas, so I'm finally starting up my new journal, which I'll hopefully be updating regularly in the very near future. I've had a SHIT night and today is looking equally crappy, so I'm not sure when I'll get done customizing it and actually get to updating it... BUT...
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) hemlockheart, PLEASE ADD IT! I already added most of you as friends. If I didn't and you want to be added, just add me. I didn't leave anyone off because I don't want them as a friend, but because the journals hadn't been updated and I don't know if they're still used. Thanks!!!
current mood:  stressed
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(1 Drank my war. | It's in the blood.)
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| Tuesday, July 10th, 2007
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8:02 pm
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| Sunday, March 11th, 2007
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8:44 pm - I'm sorry I'm a shitty LJer...
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I'm going INSANE. I have a really, really long post saved in my "mail waiting to be sent" box on a dif. SN, but if I switch to it, at least 1 person will IM me, and that apparently is too much for AOL to handle. It's going so fucking slow I could probably send snail mail, or walk cross country, faster than trying to check and send mail/messages. I AM IMPATIENT. I've been cursing at the computer all night, but so far haven't chucked the laptop through a window... so close. I'm chain-chocolate eating or I'd probably be breaking something. I have so much shit to talk about and I CAN'T even respond to people who've mailed me and been waiting to hear from me for days already. Seriously, I've been on or trying to get back on the last 2 1/2 hours, I've managed to send 2 MySpace comments, and read one piece of mail. I may try to sneak into Grand View's compy lab soon 'coz I can't take this, me and my internet connection are like peanut butter and jelly motherfuckers... I'm so angry and violent lately. Last night @the All Time Low show a girl butted in on my convo. with Shane, he was saying he's gone into venues after the show was over to get merch, without going to the show, this bitch is like, a 16 y/o emo airhead, and she says, "That's kinda lame." Without hesitation, I say, "Well, you're kind of fat." She didn't strike me as the high self esteem type, so I probably ruined her night, oops. I was just sick of people being dicks and bumping Shane's broken ankle. In other news, I'm enjoying random bursts of shallowness and enjoying all the eye candy the world has to offer me. Emo boys and my new dream lover, Takeshi. When I'm able to actually DO ANYTHING online, I will share some Takeshi goodness; finally found the gorgeous Asian I knew was out there somewhere waiting for me to drool over... I tossed Orlando Bloom out faster than a fat kid in dodgeball. I was the fat kid in dodgeball, lemme tell ya, that's pretty fucking fast.
The best way to describe my life currently- frustrating, stressful, overwhelming, and confusing. I'm near break down, seriously, there are so many things I want to avoid that I can't hold a normal conversation. Every day seems to last like 5 minutes and there I am going to bed, pissed that I accomplished nothing, while shit keeps piling onto my shoulders. I've had some really great times mixed in the middle of these horrible days, which I'm very thankful for. My stomach/guts are in bad shape again... I've toughed out the weekend but am calling my GI doc first thing tomorrow, I unno if it's safe for me to continue in my current level of improper functioning 'til the 26th. Unless not eating between now and then can be seen as a diet vs. dying slowly, and if I don't really need my mouth or throat so the stomach acid filling them every time I sleep (even sleeping sitting up, at least I don't vomit that way...) is no big deal.
::BIG SIGH:: so much on my mind, lots of money and health worries, lots of social confusion. I know I'll never catch up on this last week's entries so if I've missed something huge and you see this and have time, lemme know what's up or point me towards the important entries... I'll try to read as many as I can as soon as I can NOT BE PISSED OFF by a barely working, sorry excuse of an internet connection. Also anyone who was waiting for snail mail from me, don't. I've been so mentally gone or too sick to write and mail things. I have a package ready for Susu and that's it, and I'll mail it next time I'm out of the house dear, so sorry. :(
Fucking hate my life this evening. I keep saying, tomorrow will be better, and yet I've hated my life many evenings in a row...
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(4 Drank my war. | It's in the blood.)
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| Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
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5:43 pm - P.S. Time setting issues?
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It's saying my last post was at 5 P.M.- it's 12:41 P.M. right now and I just posted it. I checked and my time zone is set to US/Central, anyone have any ideas how to get it back in order without having to manually change the time on each post and backdate them? Anyone else having the same problem? My computer's clock is showing the correct time, I checked that first.
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(2 Drank my war. | It's in the blood.)
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| Thursday, July 13th, 2006
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5:20 pm
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| Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
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11:46 am - Hahahahaha
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This is my, "Yeah I was fat, bitches, so what? I'm your fucking world, you're nothing without me!" icon.
Jared Leto is my angry, self-centered alter ego. LMAO.
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(1 Drank my war. | It's in the blood.)
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